Credits to sha, and either I was frustrated with the Cake or I couldnt wait to stuff the cake in my mouth.

AND! HAPPY BELATED BIRRRRTTTTHSSSSSDDDAAAAYY TO SISTER EMMA AND A HAPPY HAPPPPPYYY BIRTHDAY TO SISTER IRA!!!
Okay so happy 19th to the both of ya and yes yes, you ladies are growinggg older :D Grow la grow! okay why my wishes are like so lame? -_-" wait! Here's a proper one; May Allah bless you with the world's riches and wonders. And also, I wish you ladies all the best in whatever and hope that momentum wouldnt be the end of our Tarian Relationship. hahaha. Looooooveeee ya. Sister HuDa wait long2 for your birthssday uh. eheheee.

So guess where I am now -_-" whatever your guess is im sure its wrong cause no one would ever come up with this. okay folks, currently im sitting under my void deck all freaking alone, stealing other peoples' internet connection and wondering whether I should proceed up to my house or not. Okay so don't get me wrong, its not that I want to like run away from home or what. I just don't want to go home and find this one person giving me the "okay its time for me to let out my anger at you cause i had a bad day at work and all the blame should be thrown at you" face. Its so fcuking irritating cause why? This person would act as though there's nothing wrong at all with what he or she is doing. Doesnt mean you have the authority, you have the right to shoot me down just like that. After all that I've done and endured just to cover up your irresponsible-ness, you would still say that I was this this and that? Hello??!! I respect you but you yourself brought me up to be very self-contained with my rights and right now, I can assure you that I can only contain myself for so long.

You thought that it was completely legitimate that I had to be on my own eversince I was 7 years of age. You thought that it was okay to put all your issues on my shoulders so that you only had to carry like what? none? You thought that it was okay for you to use me as a tool for your social accquaintency outside. You thought that it was okay to lie to me. Let me tell you;
Y o u t h o u g h t w r o n g.

A person has his or her every right to be what he or she wants to be. A person has his or her every right to have support from his or her elderly when it comes to doint that wanting. A person has his or her every right to get agitated with his or her elders whenever they've crossed the line too far even though their elders, there's no excuse, difference is; he or her does not get the privellage to express out these feelings.
AND a person definitely has his or her right to say that enough is enough when his or her existence is taken as a joke. Because every living thing in this world has been granted a purpose for being here. No matter how small that purpose is, it still IS a purpose and a purpose HAS to be fufilled.

And NO ONE has the right to take away that purpose no matter how HIGH THE AUTHORITY is; no one has that right except Allah and you certainly arent Allah. So dont tell me that I have no purpose here cause I certainly HAVE MORE FCUKING PURPOSE THAN YOU

Okay lemme just confess;

SO a BIg BIGGGG BiG thx to the lovely peeps for the wishes and pranks -_-" whatever eh. And thanks to the bestfriend for the cake! And YAN!! for the present and the earlier and EVERYTHING!! hahaha. And waaaah, I didnt know I have such sweet friends. I love you guys man!

Oooookay. Firstly its officially not my birthday already so I can wish myself now. Hahahaha okay so I go by this stupid thing that I shall not wish myself a happy birthday not until the day of my birthday ends. Heeee :D So since that the day is over, I can wish myself now! HAPPY LAME 17TH BIRTHDAY TO MUAAA!!! :] Okay so what im 17? I still can't get my liscence yet :( oooohh so sad. At least im one year closer to it :D Yeah yeah so okay thats a plus. So my wish? Lets not classify this as a wish okay;

What else can I simply want from my "FULLY FUFILLING LIFE" hahah. Wait, not that im not unappreciative with my life now. Cause I can assure you that I am most appreciative of my life than ever. Okay pause!
I would like to thank Allah that for giving me the chance to celebrate a 17th birthday and I pray that Allah would let me celebrate more joyous birthdays. Alhamduillah that I am still breathing and walking and able to laugh at people ^_^ ehehehe.

So what do i hope for? Lets see; I would so love to have a life that is less hectic and would not drain so much of my emotions out of me every single day. I would love to have a life that has a healthier me, whereby I wouldnt be poked with needles every other month. I would love to have a life whereby I actually have a family that is a family at heart and not only by its name. I would love to have a life that has me, not having to worry about issues that causes me to be so weary of what I have to do. I would love to have a life that only has piano in it. I would love to have a life that was only spent by me playing the piano. I would love to have a life whereby I have to fake my emotions. I would love to have a life that a job title isnt all that counts.

I would love to have a life whereby the people that live in it, wouldnt want to judge others just by their status or looks. And finally; I would love to have a life that doesnt consist of me alone, a life that is shared with someone else that sees me for who i am, a life that is love not to be someone to get over someone for, a life that isnt told a fake "i love you and will never leave you". A life that is simply loved by someone who is true to his love and trusts and appreciates when I say, I love you;

Ookay so thats my "wish", pretty wordy huh. Its not expensive, but its impossible ^_^ So you see, I dont do highly priced things, but priceless genuines.
Happy Birthday to me;

Okay so its a day late, but whatever cause why? I spent the last 2 days with her anyways :D SO, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY BESTEST FRIEND!!! (Don't action eh cause mine is in one week ^_^) Muahahahahah. Its been a pleasure knowing you and I bet it'll be a blast to keep on knowing you. Sometimes you maybe as blur as me but no matter what it is, you're always up on your feet. I've seen you grown from sec 1 and let me tell ya, you've truly have become from a kid to an amazing lady. ( a fat faaaaat lady, hahaha. Please eh kau, no more munchies at night) I know its been hard for you, the roads you've crossed, the hurdles you've jumped but its all only the begining of a remarkable future you're about to mould. Turning a year older means you're another year closer to get to that future you want so bad. Dear friend, you know you'll always have me no matter what the outcome is. I pray that Tuhan shall make all your hopes and dreams come true and get you out of any mishaps. And I pray that Tuhan will let you experience an infinity of Birthdays. May all your wishes come true baybeh! You know i love ya soooooo much fatty!! (seriously, you have to stop coming with me to NTUC) Eheheh.

Sometimes you'll find yourself longing for silence so badly that you will hate even the slightest sound made. You'll want the stillness of silence so badly that you will hate even the slightest movement made. Why would you want the contentness of this silence so bad? Cause the fact that you've found yourself surrounded by the insecurities of your thoughts. How does one feels safe when one cannot find the epiphany in ones thoughts? Somethings to reconsider; Never keep so many things inside your head cause when it overflows, it gets directed straight into your thoughts. Then you'll find yourself not thinking straight and you'll find it extremely hard to get yourself composed. You'll think too hard that it becomes a strain when you talk. Silence will be your most unparelleled option yet;

Sometimes thinking may lead you somewhere you wouldnt want to be.

Hey all you beautiful peeps! Hahahaha. I bet everyone misses me since my delightful aura has not been circulating this dusty thing :] My apologies, since I've been SERIOUSLY BUSY with school, Dance, Piano Lessons and etc. Yes yes, soooo many things. You'd think I'd didnt noticed that I've been neglecting everything else. Ouh yeah, that reminds me; To all my awesome-my friends, LAST CALL FOR MOMENTUM TIX!!! AND PLEASE EH, DONT ASK ME TO RESERVE IF YOU'RE NOT GIVING ME ANY MONEY -__- I would pay for you but unfortunately my money is like everywhere. SO you see, I cant possibly be paying for everyone of you. So please eh. If you guys don't want to go I understand ^_^V.

Okay so how have I enjoyed school so far? I absolutely love my classmates. They're such a horrendous bunch of people, in a good way. They're so nice yet, they give me so many nicknames -_-" ESPEACIALLY DINO! Please eh pakcik. The only modules that I could get my wits on, are only Enterprise and cognitive -_-" Sciene.. Well erm, it depends. MATHS? haha neverrr Ever. Programming, still getting the tick of things. SO enough about class, Dance. I absolutely adore dancing here in RP. The troupe itself, is sucha blast. With lovely seniors like these, I wouldnt mind dancing every day(figuritively speaking okay, please cikgu).
Momentum's only 2 weeks away. Eheheheee, and in between; obviously practices and previews shall be squeezed in. So you see, I am very very verryyyy busy. So excuse my lack of updates.

Half of the year has almost past and yes, I do notice that time does not wait for those who delay around. Time has no means to wait for those who only wish to throw it away just like that. It has no means to wait for those who are more concern in using it like water. So you see time does not wait for anyone and it certainly wont wait for me. I know I have no time for "intimate relationships" during this point of time. Espeacially onese that requires SO MUCH OF MY PRECIOUS ATTENTION ^_^V. So please understand that I dont mean for anything else to happen. Plus everyone knows VERY WELL that I, Lyn Hanis; DOES NOT LIKE TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WHEREBY THE DUDE, IS SOMEONE WHO'S SO GOD DAMN NEEDY AND DEPENDENT ON ME.

Did you know that the world is seperated by two kinds of women? Split into 5% and 95% by which these 5% group of women, HATE to get involved into relationship that requires those yada-yada's and blah-blah-blah's. Guess what? I belong to that 5% group ^_^ so you and me? No-noo. Therefore I know i did the right decision for letting go only after 3 days. At least there is no attachment made. I know Im being unreasonable, but this is me. I dont change who I am for some random guy which I know is not the one yet. Plus Im getting use to being my only person and Im liking this freedom. Besides, whats past has scarred me so dark that I have kept this sense of security, to always be single and not get involve. DUHHHH!! Can't you see my main blog tittle?? Philophobist :] So yeah. Thats that.

Am I still waiting or expecting for anyone else to come sweep me off my feet? Naaaaahh;

I've already fallen in love with an even spectacular being; The love for Classical Piano. Nothing brings me back to the top of the world then caressing my fingers against the pale white and dark black keys of the piano. Letting each finger glide through every octave, hearing the ringing of every note in my ears, letting the adrenaline rush through my entire body from the tips of my fingers until finally the emotions sets in as I reach total equanimity with my soul. This extrodinaire empahty, only some knows how it really feels like; My passion has never stopped growing :]

Okay up till here then, There's someone playing the piano and is making me Jealous -_-"

Hey all. FIRST AND FOREMOST!! I would like to say that the past few dance practices has been quite managable ^_^ well thankfully or else I wouldnt be able to drag my butt off to school, yes me and my lazy butt. I've gotten so tired that withing 2 weeks of school, i was absent for 4 days. Amazing? Yes i know. But i do enjoy being in class, all because of the peeps in Class W16K. If not for you stoooooojes, i would be sleeping all the way through class. But still it feels weird not having sha beside me, and yan infront of me. And of course pan at the front-left and mira, su, sheek, fik, HAZIQ! OMG JUST EVERYONE OKAY.

NONETHELESS; I am enjoying every single minute of my tertiary education :D

SO; what suckish thing have i done these past few days? Firstly a big thanks to Mael, Yan, Shukur and Harith for following me to MUSTAFA(?)!!! Hahahah EH! Please okay, the place is not as bad as what people has been stereotyping about okay. Its like cheap-galore over there. SERIOUSLY! I am NOT lying. OKay fine, wait this part maybe abit raccist but erm yeah, its true that the place smells and is roaming with TONS of darkness. Okay thats all. So yeah the place holds a lot of cheap goddies. OKay lemme see, what else. Ouh yeah JB with mum and then Ordio Crib with Yan and then Bugis with Sha, yan and Din. I guess thats it.

If you've noticed, i dont blog in such a detailed manner anymore. Why? Cause school has start and im beat. Ouh and to my dearest Last Minute Heroes, I'm sorry if i havent been comitting much ever since school started. I'll try my best to catch with you guys once everything has cleared up.