Yes today is just tiring and sumthing wat we call. "Bunuh diri sendiri". yes u got that rite. Ok actuali i cam in work at 12 and suppose to finish and 6. BUT bcos of alllll the customer coming in like ants, n nobudy to take over me.... i had to continue all de way till 945 -_- and no break. tu lah bdh kan tad tk nk break. oi mane la aku tau akku tk leh balek kol 6 siotz. ok so right nowww im waiting if i can like change my working hrs 2mr or not. haiyoooohhh confirm cannot wake up at 11 one. either i go to work at 12 2mr or sleep during work or i start work late. so sirrrr plsss.

*Hi ma'am welcome to MC. can i punch u in de face?! normal or upsize?

Firstly i would like to say. y de hell i did that stupid Amaths right after sch?! its like okaayy. i duno wat came over me but i felt like doing it jus nw. But erm jus nw oniii laaaa. Thx nana for teaching. Yes ok. Dere were oso some extras disturbing my peace jus nw. Im fucking irritated okay. Dun u get de msg?! jus lift yr foot and walk away! aint dat hard to follow this simple insrtuctions wat. Stupid
-_- ya ok. So den after dat stayed till 330 den went home and i slept in de bus. Im so tired la okkk... den 2mr i hav like 6hrs of work -_- yawwwnnn i want to sleep till like 2 can?

U noe wat. sumtimes i feel reli reli stupid to like u noe feel wat real ppl are feeling. Sumtimes i feel dat im not real. HAH! ooo imagine dat im some form of a clay? dat wud be seriously errh?!. K nvm if u can read between the lines den u'll noe wat i had jus mentioned here.

heyho merry oh! ok listen. I dun noe why the hoot am i feeling like this all the way this week. I dun feel like doing stuffs that i usually do and even if i do sumthing i had to be forced or that i force myself to do it. This is the part i hate most; the part whereby i let go of everything and let myselp dwn even more. The fact that i lost sumthing sooooo big and meant the fucking hell much to me. Just want to let it out that's all. its been like wud? a hell of a long time.

U want to noe wat it is? curious right?
Itss......

KINDER BUENO!!!! i ate all up and now i dun hav any -_-"

Ok blogger is still de same -_-

Errrrrgggh. Today was basially mixed up ok. lets make it short and simple.
K morning wake up go to sch. Den had lessons and laughed. den recess. den
after sch helped nabila a bit. So long nvr talk wif her like dat and i miss
her. She's such a gd fren laaa. I love u okay nabila. Dun sad sad anymore.
U certainly do not need to care or hav concern bout those who do not care
or appreciate u okay? Ok. So den went to lot to buy oreo crush den wen home.
den after dat i went off to work and did counter. but i was the runner. But i took
a few orders :] but still dere's dis one fucking ass mother fucking chibai customer. Carik pasal sial... bdh saaak. K den i was release at 10. ate apple dippers and go home. -___-

Eh wats happening to blogger uh? just plain ass. There are no fonts. no font colours. -_-

Ya ok on wif 2day. Morning woke up at 6. Abit lethargic but nvm. OK den take de bus to sch. Dat spot check. O.M blabbering den temparature taking and all that. K firstly we now hav a co-form teacher and his name is Mr Tan Ok? ya ok. den alot of subs change of teacher. Ok so after sch went to lot first and den all de other nessacary stuff we grlf usually do. Den after everyone went bck. Mirah got work. den anis and eizah went home. Sha went home early. SO! den me and Lydia went to sit at the usual place we like meet to go out or tired to hav a sit or jus sit and talk. BUT usualy wen we sit dere we wud always talk bout a topic which is out ordinary. Right. so talk and talk. And we both realise dat we did some stupid mistakes in th past and we shudnt hav done it. We missed the times and all. But now i guess i hav to move on. I cant like wait forever. And i do hav studies to concentrate on other den like thinking 24/7 of u. U tink i hav nothing better to hah?!. OK? Ya ok. im diff shift today :[ too bad. damn it! -_- and like unfortunately an unfortunate event has happen.which i reli dun want to happen. One event is enough already i dun want a dejavu. And plus im totally out of my league. But lydia keep saying dat its true i felt it dat way but i dun want toooo. One is enuf. But u are much nicer den u. well i dunno la plsss. Mayb yes or no? i dunno.

So work was okay. I had to do fries. And ya i burnt my arm. I look like some crook frm nowhere. Eeeww i hate it and its fucking painful. Like heylo?! try putting yr hand on a hot french fries basket man. Its burning hot and who will get burnt. And i got burnt twicce! can u believe dat? -_- Stupid Ok soooo 2mr another 4 hrs of work. Byee laaaa

EEEEEEEE I FEEL LIKE CHOKING U TO DEATH! how dare u say me?! i was like pushed away okay... and u said wat? omggg u need to get things right and stop acting like dere's nothing wrong. Everything is wrong okay!! but i duno why i keep falling again -_- and always on my right foot. Nvm u. I tink i'll jus choke myself till the end. ByE!

CupiD
im getting tired everyday.

Ok i would like to say thx to all my wonderful grlf out dere who still cared for me. i am so de damn greatful to hav u guys ard. I duno wat i wud do witout u ppl! ;)
Thx for de wonderful and reali useful advices. So now i am in debt. If any of u wonderfuk grlf hav a big prob or wadever it is dat is driving u nuts. U are so welcome to come to me and talk. I am in full gratitude :] I love u to death!
each and everyone of you are speacial in yr own diff way. None of u lack sumthing. U may not hav this. But u sure hav that!

Plus nw i hav and unwanted hair on my head. bye!

Yes ok so i was bored. I edited pics and i got this video frm Yan.
hahah ok everyone is like so small and not "Big" yet. For yr info dat
was during sec 1. At the labador park. Did i spelled it right? WHo cares -_-
ok? ya ok.

yes this is sec 1a of 2005!!! hahah -_-


CupiD -_-

Yo. Ok so mistakes done. Mistakes forgiven. Misunderstandings were dere but dey were talked out. At least i hope so.

Well actuali sch holidays is nothing fun for me at "ALL". Its like one after another it's been coming in. First is u. Den after that ok. Den u. Dat after i got over it. den u. I tot i wud jus live the thing dere cos i noe u are not a bitchy kinda person. fullstop. den nooooooo it went onnnnn. Ya ok fine i noe who you are and i noe u. At least i tink so. Ppl always tink dat its soooo easy doing all this things dat i do. Ya laaaa to dem its so easy cos dey oni need to say, "ohhh jus let it go" or "let ppl overlook you its jus fine" or "jus be me". Well i am being me. dats wat i hated de most undrstand? bcos its not dat easy acting to be like me. I hate me. I nvr get what i want. I always loose out on everything. I am so stupid i cant even pass my mid yr. I am not pretty. oh ya aku tau mest ader yg ckp. Ouhhh tau pon yg kau tk lawa. Eh aku tau laaa sbab tu aku ckp bodoh. and ppl can jus walk pass me and not noe me. I am not saying dat not being so well known is a bad thing. but sumtimes its just so nice to hav ppl notice on wat u hav done for other ppl.
Wen dey noe dat u hav helped others and dat dey appreciate it and say thanks. Not wen u step out of the house and wen u walk ard de ppl u had helped once jus walk pass u like u hav nothing at all for dem. I dun expect like huge gratitude. But jus a simple thx and being appreciated dats all. If u dun even wan to do this simple thing for me den i hav no say.


If you people dun wan me in yr life den its fine. Cos i noe im not up to yr standards. Im not pretty or well known like all of you. I dun hav a boyfren and i dun hav alot of u dat i can treasure. So you see i oni hav a handful of things so pls tell me do u wan to keep me or throw me away. Its better to be thrown away den being kept but not appreciated. I absoulutely hav no idea wat u ppl hav been talking about me. If you tink dat im jus a fucking irritating bitch you jus want to ask symphathy den u are wrong cos dats not me. Im jus telling wat i feel. I cant keep it anymore. Its not easy keeping a whole lot of feeling in one unstable soul. All the friendships dat i hav been in. I hav always been overlooked and unappreciated. Mayb u ppl do appreciate i dun noe. But to me its has always been this way. Do i wan to keep this friendship? of course i do. You ppl are all i hav. Like i say i dun hav anything else. Do u wan to keep me? or throw me away. Tell me. People keep coming and going in my life. U ppl hav came. but i certainly dun wan u ppl to go. If u tink dat i am some extra part. den i hav no say.

Yes heyloo. So now currently im so tired and sleepy. But im suppose to send my hp for service and im like waiting for that fat person to wake up. -_- padehal skrg aku dh lagi gemok dari die -_- ok actuali now i tink dat im so much fatter den any of my grlf. aiyoooo. But nemind laaa. Ok de thing is i oni weigh heavier but my body is still de same. wth? ok fine. So now every morning i do 30 situps. k increase de no la. from 5 to 30. Are crazy wif me now and still wanna do 5 situps every day? -_- stupid. Ya den i still hav hw. Ook so now im still waiting for dat fat gerl to wake up. Heylooooo gerlllll.... Its oreadi 1.15 pm.... why are stil in bed? Get yr big ass out of bed pls? yes thank you. LYDIA! BGN LAAAA.

ok so now i sum waking up to do. tata!
CupiD
btw sumirah u dere??

Wohooo everyone. Heheh. K so today i had a total of 6 hours -_- K right now i am tired. and of course i wan some food. heeee. Ya ok so even tho i gained 6 to 7 kg of weight in like jus 2 days. I still hav a large amount of appetite. Wei listen up. Im not de type of girl who cares soooooooooo much about my weight. I noe that my BMI is oni slightly off. But who cares. I'm still not fat la. Im oni heavier but i certainly dont look fatter. Hokay... Ok? ya ok. Ok la so actuali my working is also helping cos ermmm i guess it'll help me reduce a little fat. Muahahaha.

Basically i did 30 mins of lobby den after dat it was fries allllll deeee waayyy. hah ok if u ppl tink dat the basket fries is light. woahhh tink again. It is reli reli reli reli reli heavy. dh lah topi aku besar. And it keeps falling and covering my eyes. hahah i mean like dere's no smaller size hokaaay. -_-
hahah k den lydia and eizah came and visit hahah k so nice of dem :] hahah and de mat delivery kept asking for their no. ya ok so dey stayed for a while and den went off. Thx bebehs! ya so actuali my manager wanted me to stay for another 30 mins. but sorry sir im super tired. muahahah heylooo i still have another 6 hrs 2mr.






look at my eye bags -_- aiyooooo.

See this girl here? ok so she went off to Perak. have a nice trip orite bebeh!

ok so bye la wat else u wan?

Muahahha -_-
Ps: dun eat junk food bcos it can reli make u gain like 6 to 7 kg in less den 2 days. Its a fact. It happen to me. Muahahah now im fat. But not dat fat :]

CupiD

EVERYTHING

find me here
and speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
you are the light
that's leading me
to the place
where I find peace again

you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life
to my soul
you are my purpose
you're everything

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this yeah

you calm the storm
sand you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
take me deeper now

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

cause you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

Pssssst I hav this sudden crave for
Singapore Polytechnic's

Strawberry Milkshake

And

Egg Prata

:]

Muahahaha tk salah perrr seyyyy

Ok im gonna make it short and simple.
Im so tired and im extremely tired k n dats it.
N guess wat? 2mr i hav to take an injection
WoW! i hate needles -____-
its sumthing called Typhoid. wth?



CupiD -____-

Ya ok. so 2mr im going to KL for 3 days. dat means im gonna miss 2days of valuable lesson. Hoho just wen im starting to get a hang of things. ok so Yew Tee Mac called me for training on wed. hahah ok so shrek ears for me. Ok nvm. Budden im stil feeling a little nervous. Firstly im alone n secondly wat if make alot of errors. Haiyaaa......ok watever. So now im packing my stuff and everything. Personally i guess im bringing alot of unnessasary items. haha k bag reaaally heavy. OK? ok. anyone wanna come along??? hahah u can sit in de boot of the car or u can sit on the roof :] heheh

So im gonna miss all de lovely grlfies here.
Lydia n anis if u r reading dis... hope u hav a nice trip in pahang so sori i wont b ard to welcom u guys bck. To sumirah, i hope all will b settled and hav a nice time.

I'll miss spore miss sch miss my grlfies miss my home miss my kitchen miss my com miss my room miss sumthing miss mr lee(hahaha) k fine no. i'll find plenty of milk dere. Muahahah sori. OK? ya ok.

Ok so byeE
CupiD
Im de gerl wif extremely big jacket and boot like sound shoes :]
and of course this face -_____-
:]