Heylooooo deeeerrreeeee.

Currently im at lydia's hs waiting for her to siap and stuff. Hoooo.
k so slow but nemind. right nw i duno wether to go or not. Since i hav to fetch my sis and stuff and its so damn leceh. -_- k byeee

malas tau nk g.
kerana apa? amek adek....

suburbancupid
yours for Eternity;

Woooots. Okay finally im updating. Hahah its a miracle -_- okay so far, Hari Raya has been okay. Collected a fine sum of money :D right. If i haven spent 33 bucks on crumpler. i wud hav more. but hell yeah. Finally bought one. Hav been pending and pending all this while. Hahah okay. I always delay my stuffs cos i noe de money will b needed for other things. Am i being selfish to myself? naah dun tink so. I tink im cruel to me. Do u tink so?

Lets shift the topic. People like me? Its damn hard to find peace or happiness or erm jus someone who stays by me. I dun hav peace all de time. I dun stay happy all the time. yes i laugh, but its jus cover up. See? ppl dun even care that im jus pretending. Im the biggest faker anyone has ever known. Reason why? cos im not the type who wans attention being drawn to me. De oni attention i wan is attention from peace, happiness and someone or something. I nvr cared dat others who dun deserve wat dey hav... cud hav wat i really wan in a blink of an eye. They might hav lost something so dear to them. They pretend to be so effing remorse over it but den, wat u find? u find them wif someone else. Yes i said i nvr actualli cared. Till nw, cos u noe why? i realised that ITS NOT FAIR NOT FAIR NOT FAIR!!!!

U noe why its not fair? cos i tink i deserve it. I deserve YOUR peace, YOUR happiness and SOMEONE or SOMETHING to jus share my peace and happiness and success and everything. Wat i feel is that YOU hav been stealing it frm me frm de very first moment i wanted something and u had to b in de picture as well. YOU AND YOUR SOMEONE AND ANOTHER ONE.
Ouh yeah. To you. u tink that u are the culprit. u are innocent. Tink again buddy, you're wrong. Cos u noe why? YOU hav been de one all this while. I realised it nw. U pretend to care but actuali you wan de attention of being a caring person. u pretend this u pretend that. all this while u hav been over-shadowing me. THATS wats keeping me like this. of being so low of myself. u tink u so great cos yr great and perfect? i dun tink so. U took away of wats rightfully to be mine.

eh listen here. i may b ugly and short and half-witted, but i am seriously NOT STUPID. i can diffrentiate a faker and truely pure person. why? cos im the biggest faker u've ever known. and i herby declare that your a faker. and do not need to pretend anymore around me. mayb youre nice to me cos u wan to look nice and let ppl compare btwn u and me. cos y? youre the preetier one. and it feels so gd to u dat u hear other ppl being critisised bcos of your fame and glory.

If u tink u hav the guts. come straight up to me and tallk to me. and this time. stop denying wat u already did and saying that u didnt.

im an ugly fugly bitch who isnt such a nice fren. Im de worst fren u cud ever had. so? get away frm me. cos im yr ugly fren who has no peace and happiness and someone or something to share it wif

Im nothing.

WEEEEEEETSSSSS. RAYE DH TIBA!!!!!!
isnt it exciting? i mean its like so fast. its like ramadhan and all and and...
CUT the crap lyn -_-

OK firstly i would like to wish to all u muslim bloggers out dere:

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Dan Batin.
Jikalau saya telah blog tentang perkara yg teleh menyinggung
perasaan anda. Saya meminta maaf.
Heeeee :]

Ok ppl. dun malu2 yar. come to my house for raya. i'll b having open house on de 20th october which is de 8th day of raya. its open to all. and open once. so its oni open on that day. other days if u ppl wanna come. must see the conditions first. muahahaha

ok mari kite semue start kunjung mengunjung kepada sanak saudara.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI; MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN :DD

suburbaNCupid :D
____; you make me smile
memories will be carried on foward.

Skipped work for 2 days straight. Reason? sick -_- yes ppl. the flu and throat irritation. damn i hate that. it reli spoils the whole appetite. Meaning that food all seems to taste erm diff. as in not nice. Yuck. but no matter. food is stil food :]

2mr is school day. wishing not to go but its results. i do not wish to get bck my results but i hav no choice. cant run away frm it forever. sooner or later i'll get bck my result. even if i dun come bck to sch till nxt yr, most probably the school'll hunt me dwn and pass me my result -_- 3/4 of the class failed eng and physics. well i certainly noe that im not in that category. what if i drop? tell me? tell me?

ahh forget it. i wan food. gimme food. food food food!! hahahaha
foods nice

suburbancupid :]
living the life that i never liked living

I hate my life :]

Ok right now? I'm suppose to be at work but instead im here. hah. y cos im sick. Look there's no reason to b at work while yr nose is like full of mucus and yr throat itches like hell. So isnt it better to b at home and sleep? yea dats right. Oh man how i wish i could come along with my grls to geylang now. shoosh. ok im sick. so stay home and b a gd sick kid would b. ya n i still need to go to doctors later. how troublesome can dat b. wheww results gonna b out soon. how will i do? will i fail n drop N.A? Dad says he doesnt mind that much but deep inside i noe he does mind. ALOT. wif bro successing so well. And sis excelling very well. I reli am the runt of the family -_- but thats wat made me... me.

Hey it sucks to be me. There is absolutely no way i can deny dat. Ask around, ppl will surely admit that my life suck. duuhh being erm so called not nice?? k. watev. i dun mind at all. But yeah being stupid in academic is reli the downfall of every singaporean in singapore. its like ppl could literally die for an O'level cert. Not to mention to b a diplomat. me? i dun even noe if i can make it up nxt year. whr the hell did i go wrong? i keep asking myself this but i still cant figure out wat it is. till erm jus nw. ive been so stupid. thinking and thinking every single mint. dat i even loss myself in classes. i shudnt hav been thinking. now, i suffer. i cant go anywhr rite nw.

SuburbancupiD
____; im lost.