Weeehooooo. Ok today i duno y but im jus so jittery. hahah

k wen geylang jus nw. so a couple of ppl. n erm stupid mats and minahs. always wan to stare. tsktsktsk. i noe im ugly. dun hav to stare. haishyooo. woah 2mr is english paper n i haven studied dat much -_- how leh how? tell meh. tell meh!!! Lyn shuddup. k enuf chit chat. i wan to see the new curtains. hahahah smgt dok. raya bebeh.

Like de song?

Jom kite smgt Hari Raya!!!

k fine b4 dat i need to pass end of year first. heeee :]

cupiD
____:] you MADE me smile;

WEEEEEEEWWWWW!!!! END OF YEAR EXAM STARTS 2MR!!!! one word -_- DIE. yes dats it.

Okay actuali 2day is nothing much for me. At first i came to sch late. I reached at ard 930 adn wen i got to claas. Ppl were like comenting on my foot and ya. Its getting worse. SOooo i went to see O.M to get an early realease form together wif lydia. hah ok we waited for 0.M for like an hour. Den at the polyclinic a total of 1 and a half hours. -_- i hate patients who are seeing the docs at polyclinics. Dey like take their own time. HEylooooo?? wat about me? Mua? yes. ok. ok ya den i got like this medicine called potassium antiseptic. Woah. dats very reactive. hahah ok.fine. chemistry i noe. Ya speaking of that i missed de mock paper -_- damn it! jus wen i actuali studied for it. bummer. Yes ok so after poly...wen home to take those corsets sadly lydia cudnt come bck. ok understood. sit sit and done. wen home eat mcspicy. ooooo yes. my manager called me bck to work -_- yeay -_-

ANIS? WHR ARE YOU? KNAPE TK DTG KE SKOLA HUHHH? HEYLLLOOOO?.....

Ohooooo dancing 2mr for mid autumn festival [:]:
Malay paper 2mr -_- gd luck to whoevers taking it. espeacially to 8 speacial girls in Teck Whye. hahaha u ladies noe who you are.

cupiD,
____:] you made me smile;

Hitomi wo fuseruto sugukieteshimaisoude
Jibun ga mishiranu tanin ninattaki gasuru
Kanashiihodo chippokena
Sukuwaretaikara tameiki wo tsukuno janaku
Kakidashite shimatta kodoku no kehai no kazu wo Tada kazoeteita

Kawaita jikan no nakade
Oboreterumogaiteru kokoro
Memaiga surukurai no uso wo
Uketomete hikisaita
Soshite watashi ga
mayoikomunowa
Usuyami no sekai

Shinjirubekimonono tamenitoeranda basho wa
Jiyuu wo kagi nishita ori no nakadeshou Kesshite mou Nukedasenai
Kawaita nodo no oku de
Hajimatta hakanasa no wake wa
Chikazuku ashita ga kowaikara
Uzukumari kuzuretemo
Watashi wo sagashite sasayakikakeru
Usuyami no koe

Kawaita jikan no nakade
Oboreteru mogaiteru kokoro
Memaig asurukurai no uso wo
Uketomete hikisaita Soshite watashi ga
Mayoikomunowa
Usuyami no sekai



Hoho try finding de Romanji and translation if u wan to noe wat those japanese words means. actuali dey arent jus words. They are lyrics to a song and the meanings are meaningful.
:[ okay listen i jus dun noe wats happening between everyone here and im by it.
im not forcing things here. i noe i cant change how ppl feel bout if each other. u guys dun fight. pls. its a beautiful frenship dat we kept between us, y drop sumthing dat is nice. i may not b de preetiest or hottest or popular bestest bestfren u guys ever had. But one thing i sure noe is that i treasure all of u ladies frenship. dun dat matter? it does to me. u all are the oni ppl i hav. 4 gone? 4 left. i dun wan to separate. Truly i dun. I dun hav any guys dat fall for me. i hav no one else but u ladies. hope u undrstand. I noe u guys cant decide anything now. U said u needed time. And i'll giv u all the time in the world for u to consider. But pls dun separate and drift away.

Frens are de ones dat cry along wif u
while guys are de ones whom we cry about
therefore keep the one u adore in yr mind
but yr bestfrens in yr heart.

cupiD.
____ :] you MADE me smile;

4 more days till end of year examinations and 25 more days to raya!!

okay today is a little of erm everything. im xtremely lazy to blog bout the whole thing that has happened today. erm okay. ooooo yeaaa den its like 4 more days to mid autumn festival. muahah we are peforming. i hope ppl will like it. hmph u shud noe whr we stand now. so ermm. ya ok. k so now im listening to a piano piece dat ive been learning so far. k lydia asked me to learn her Mirai E. k dat can wait. but this cannot. i shall b completing it soon. WOOOO b happy pls? pls? commonnn tryyyy. -____- OKAYYY... i get de picture. so okay enuf. Lyn? your crazy. jus plain crazy. Oh well. Ok woots. u guys tink i can play the piece here like this fellow here? his a pro i tell ya. woooshh. practiceeeee -__-




cupiD
____ :] you make me smile;

Yes hello. Weeets. today i didnt attend sch cos erm morning my body felt damn hot. Like i jus went out of de oven -_- soooooooo yes i stayed in bed. actuali im in not much mood to type out wat happen. so bye. till here oni. dun try to say dat y updated so little -_-

cupiD, im sick -_- n it sucks.
one more week to E.O.Y -_-
28 more days to RAYA!!!
____:] you make me smile;

HAPPY ONEMOTHSARY BEBEH!!!!

weeehooo see her here i love her sooooo much! and now

im so proud of her! very2 proud. okay dear dear hope u last

so very long wif Mr Monyet horr. Im extremely happy to see you

move on and all and be soooo great in it. GOOOOO CAT AND MONYET!!!

Last long. Last Forever and Ever.

Love cupiD :D

____; you make me smile :]

Oh hi i hate you. I need you to realise god damn it! Its not simple hiding it inside do u noe dat. I dun noe wether u noe or not... but i guess u do.

Well thank you very much. im pretty much done here so dere.
cupiD;
____ :]

Weeehooo look at mua! Muahahahahaha.. its ard 815 am and im here updating and eating coco-crunch and drinking tea and listening to techno and no sense of urgency. muahahahahaaa!!. im proud of me! -_- lyn how can u b proud of this? shoosh watev. hah actuali de plan dat i planned out yesterday was to wake up 830 dat take my sweet time to get ready so i'll like reach sch ard 945 like dat. cook huh. heh. but i canceled it myself cos it like kinda evil. but this morning i woke up wif a headache so erm hah. ya. den wen i got ready at like 650. my stomach make probs and ya. so here i am. muahahhahahaha. so now lemme get to sch okay. first lemme finish my breakfast. Life is great wen u dun hav to rush!!! yeah!!


Im an evil person! muahahahahaha.
Don't i look evil? yes!

Eh ive done all h.w including SS!
cupiD;
i love all my grlfs!
____, u make me smile! and i thank u for dat.

Can i jus say i fall into a deeper hole evryday? Mayb u dun get wat i mean but mayb some will noe. Does who hav experienceeee itttt. ahahh.. -_- watever lyn. wat rubbish. hmph. k no its not. isit? urrghh i duno. K watever 2day was verrryy tiring. as u noe ive spring cleaned my room and now its clean and all set for RAYA!!! yeayy!! erm? -_- puase is not even here yet. ok soon. heeee can wait. and yet again dere is sumting called exams ... -_- wat the ho. orite. k moving on. after i cleaned my room den juliet came over den we wen to lot to eat den erm stopped by yew tee den wen bck my hs and den yada2 ok done. k so 2mr is sch reopen. hw boring and lame it can get. well we shall seeeeeeee.

yes and erm yes. it may seems dat ive got myself into de same sticky and uhh unfortunately mind stressing not to mention physically and mentally hurting situation again -_- how dumb can i get??? ive always tried to avoid it but apparently im like so vulnerable to this situations. ive tried. tsked. especially an ugly person like me shudnt hav even noe wats the meaning of this whole situation. and ya espescially wen de situation invovles enoemos ekil taht. damn im in a bad bad situation. how do i ever get out. heh. do i ever wan to get out. i dun even noe if u noe. wat if u noe. probably u wudnt cared. and jus stop. cos u hav. it was always me. i dun even noe if yr stil one. mayb yr 2 already. who noes i'll nvr noe. heeeh. it was always nice to noe.

cupiD; i feel tinggly.
yeay dere's hikmah 2mr :D

Hey guess wat. sch holiday is almost over and erm im not ready for term 4 and i haven done all my hw -_- i tink dat i haven hav enud holiday yet. hah most probably cost i spend like most of my holidays at home and in bed -_- y? cos i was damn sick. and i still am. shit. i hav seriously no mood at all to continue bck on wif sch. Sch means new topic and more stress. Errgh. Im preety sure my the teachers are gonna b very pushy and cranky cos i noe they are gonna cramp a bunch of topics into like 1 week?? hehlooo? wat are we? cyborgs?? i dun tink sooo. Dey shud hav planned out more carefully and not squish evrything into de final term and exam. crazy. its like suicide!!!! wif me on de verge of dropping to n.a.. woah. sca-ry. alrite watev.

Okie dokes. today i woke up at 12. made my breakfast and den sat infront of the tv till 350 and den got ready to go for my aunties erm Kenduri. de food was excellent and i ate like ALOT. woohoooo! cant resist gd food. heheeee. no wonder im ugly. cos erm duuuhhh. u dun see pretty skanky beyatchs eating like a truckload of food. well no wonder. ooops. dere i go again. well i cant help myself. mayb dats wat i need help. real help. alot of help.

okay enuf talk. i need to eat more chocs. im stressed out.
wen im stressed. i eat :]

cupiD;
you make me smile ____ :D

Ok yesterday was erm. Fun i can say. but erm ya. so im gonna put oni sum pics to say de rest so buhbye!








Ok dats it.
ok sooo erm y dun u guys try do the survey on my previous post. u can nvr imagine how it can turn out. hahah.

Ahah! so 2 ppl has tagged me wif this. so ok.

The person who tagged you is _ Lydia and suANI hahahah
Your relationship with him/her is _ both are my grlfs
5 impressions you have of him/her _ both are lovely. sweet. hot. laughABLE. gd ppl who are dere for me wen i need dem
E most memorable thing he/she has done for you _ Lydia has been dere wenever it is. suANI even tho we quarreled ovr stupid matter last time, she's stil here 4 mua! ily suuuu!
E most memorable words he/she has said to you _ Lydia has said im here 4 u. Su has said dun cry. ppl are not worth yr tears. u are. awww
If he/she becomes your lover, you will? _ hey do i look like a lesbo to u?
If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be _ dey are perfect in every way :]
If he/she becomes your enemy, you will _ hate myself 4 letting things bcome this way :[
If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be _ dere is no reason cos we'll nvr b. is dere?
E most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is _ erm?
Your overall impression of him/her is _ gd folks dey are.

How you think people around you will feel about you _ i tink ppl tink im ugly :] do u? hahahah
E characteristics you love about yourself is _ i cant laugh my ass of even in sticky situations
E characteristics you hate about yourself is _ that i realise that i'm ugly and i let it get to me
E most ideal person you want to be is _ OPRAH WINFREY!! -_- wat a charity person.
say someth to e ppl who have alw cared & love you _ thank you ppl 4 holding up wif my nonsense and lame jokes dat i do so far and thanks 4 still being here!! ily ppl.

Name 10 other people youre thinking of now.
1.ShaSha
2.Meeerah
3.Juliet
4.Kiddie
5.Valentina
6.Eizah
7.Someone sumwhr in Singapore
8.Senorita
9.suANI
10.Someone i saw yesterday. so hot. hahahaha(lyn very gatal and so very bitchy of u)

Who is no. 6 having a relationship with? _ ooo farysa. lovely couple together :] so sweet. go cine!! wohooooo!!!
Is no. 9 a male or female? _ She's a female, stupid!
If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? _ ewww. dats so wrong. dey wud b gays den. yuck! oh noooo dat can nvr happen. hahahah.
What is no. 2 studying? _ 7 subs
When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3? _ Jus yesterday
What kind of music does no. 8 like ? _ oooo. she's into jiwang.
Will you woo no. 3? _ She's my grlf!
How bout no. 7? _ hahahahahahahahahahaha. welllllll. noooooooooooo. no wayyyy.
Is no. 4 single? _ Oooo she's single but not available. dun kpo2 can?
Whats e surname of no. 5? _ Jalil. but i tink dere is an Abdul infront. ya dats right. Abdul Jalil.
Whats e hobby of no. 4? _ she loves to crap and laugh at ppl. hahahah
Does no. 5 and 9 get along well? _ well dey are schmates
Where is no. 2 studying at? _ Teck Whye Sec. Duuhhh.
Say something casual about no.1? _ YOU ROCK MY SOCKS SHAAAA!!!!
Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8? _ she a female. stupid. but i love her anyways.
Where does no. 9 live? _ Bukit Panjang
What colour does no. 4 like? _ RED
Are no. 5 and 1 best friends? _ hahahahah. DUHHH!!
Does no. 7 like no. 2? _ ooooo. interesting if dat happens. heheheh. i wud totaly support. but erm no.2 has her monyet. so lets jus not meddle wif de situation here okay. muahahahah
How did you get to know no. 2? _ She's been wif me since Primary sch.
Does no. 1 have any pets? _ oho! nooooooo.
Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world? _ heheheheheheheh. welllll if u put it another way. TOTALY!!! hahahahaha


10 people to do this quiz.
1.Meeerah
2.Kiddie
3.Juliet. she did it. but im putting i dun care. hahaha
4.Valentina
5.SUyanie. she did it too but i dun care. im PUTTING!! hahah.(eh i giv her lots of nicks huh.)
6.Wanie
7.Akiller
8.U wan to do it? den do
9.GO!
10.DO IT!!

Hav a wonderful rest of de day.

My eyes. dey are getting better. except for the sides. Its like still red as cherry. All the other grfs are still sick wif it. Pity u ladies. stay home and rest. Dun go out till your eyeballs are completely white. U guys uhhh... like to out. Shopping maniacs. hahahah dats wat i like. hahaha get well soon ladies! be happy wif yr eyes! Go RED!

"Everything I'm Not"

Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I seeI don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
Now wait a minute

Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

CupiDlyn

Yes yes heylo after like a very long time of not updating. reasons are always de same. no need 4 me to explain -_- its always de usual. damn me 4 being so lazy. see if i care. hahahah. NOT! yes ok alot of things hav happened. example techers day, excursion to that army open house. ouh and did i mention that ive been damn sick 4 de past few days? ahah. exactly. never hav i been this sick b4. muahahah. sore eyes! fever! flu! throat infection! bodyache! yeahh i tink dats about it. hah! beat dat! ok? ya ok.

and you. ahah! yes u. lemme tell u sumthing. its been real hard and i mean real hard for me to get hold of myself bcos of u. i tried to let go but jus cant. i dun even noe if its really you or not. omg after one week plus of disappearing den u like talk to me consecutively. like 4 de first time YOU actuali made de move first. i mean i u even aware den im reli sick? are u? are u? huh? sometimes i jus wished dat u weren't so sweet. but i find u a little sour as well. hah! cant u like read between de lines? ya like if i reply late does not mean dat i dun wan to reply at all! means im sleeping bcos im SICK. but im marveled at how one msg frm u can make me smile even beneath all this suckish disease. or de sound of yr voice can make me laugh even after taking the most bitter medicine of all. sumtimes even thinking of u can make me smile or giggle me to sleep. i dun even noe if u noe. and i tink its best if it stayed dat way. cos it'll never happen and im not gd enuf :] but im jus happy to hav met you and dat u filled my emptiness and that u always filled my thoughts wif u.

Nice knowing u; Fren