Holidays arent exactly declared as holidays to me. Firstly i did not attend both my math camps. And i just had my oral for prelims today and im greatful to say that it went "okay"

Since March 2008, my life has been nothing but close to perfect and i treasured every minute of it. But recently, there has been something occuring that has been slowly chipping it away! What is it actually? I dont really know. Is it wrong for me to just listen to an old friend pour out her heart's content to me? Is it wrong for me to not take sides but just be away from all the hectic? And instead i was framed of taking a side. So is it wrong to help? Is it wrong to not help? So what am i suppose to do? Jump into a lake and drown? Hahaha that'll never happen cos i'll just swim my way to the surface :D What's the point here?

Im not looking for trouble here, just wanting to make a statement. I hope that not just you but ALL of you. BOTH parties, come to your senses and make haste. Cos this aint nice, you're involving people who aren't even sure of whats the real situation here. So okay.. And if you think this post has offended you, than im sorry. If you wanna add me to yr hate-list or erm sumone-to-critisise-about-list than go ahead. I dont care anymore. Guess our friendship was never that strong; Im sorry ladies. But what you people have done for me so far? I will always be grateful for it. Always always always. Ouh and Sis? if you want your stuff back? Please message me okay? But you can keep my stuff :D i dun mind. Take care and keep your friends close.

Suburbancupid; someone just called and hung up. Heyloo?

First and foremost, i would like to wish a great big THANK YOU to everyone who had wished me for my birthday yesterday :D ily all!!

Today.

OKAY folks! Today was my very first O'level paper. And it was malay. Nowww.. I can say that it was quite easy BUT im scared. Understand? Okay. Than after paper we headed to lot for a quick lunch and than off to 414 to sit. Alllllll the way till 6.49pm :D

YESTERDAY. 250508 (My Birthday :])

Muahahahah! That is all that can be defined by what happened yesterday. Nyeheheheh. Okay firstly i waited for him first BUT he was late -_- so i headed to s'pore flyer first to collect the tix. The walk there was seriously ASRE man. Seriously. Passed a ticket to Kak Ayu and headed to esplanade underground where he was waiting for me, perched on a wall. Heheeeee. We meddled around with the goodie bag i receieved. Slacked abit, both of us were seriously beat from not having enough sleep. Alright i yawned like ALOT of times. So did he so no problem. Muahahaha! Okay than walked all the way to Fareast and window-shopped. (ohhh suke topi ehhh) Okay than we had our "Delicious" meal at Cahaya. Walked to Heren, looked around and back to flyer. We sat abit and finally boarded the flyer at around 630. So we got the view of sunset and abit of night. Woahh. It was breathe taking but still the view of the construction site made it look really "busuk". After flyer, walked all the way to his work place at clarke quay. woaahh i entered a pub mann.. Hahahahaha. Im SIXTEEN folks! Nyeheheh. After that we went home by train. Okay done!! Tadaaaa! Others are tooo whuddd to be "blogged" No pictures. Sorry. Have actually, but i dun wanna put.

Suburbancupid; take me away :D

Heylooooo! Today was quite a good day.

School was only distributing out more holiday assignment hags and stuff. Then there were 2 period of assembly. It was boring at first but then we started folding paper hearts :D Ted taught me how to fold a newer and cooler type of paper heart. Wooooo! Okay after school ended, we headed to food culture and had our lunch. After that we went home and got ready to go back out :D

Ironically i was the first one to reach Shab's house while the others were still on their way and stuff. First we watched some movies and wen sha arrived, the suprise happened!! BAhhhh! I never felt so touched and moved in my life!! Thank you once again peeps! I love you guys sooooooooo much. Okay though my birthday is on Sunday but i had an advanced one :D

Thank you shab for the Teddy Bear, Qila for the cupcakes and Erm Oin for the Fox sweet?? I appreciate it alright. Hairi and Nana? Dont worry.. I dun care okay peeps. The rest? Thank you very muchhhh!! I appreciate it soooooo MUCH!!

To kiddie, Im sorry that i had my own plans this Sunday and cannot be with you or the rest. Really really really sorry. If ive offended you, im sorry. ly!

Evening folks! Today, school was borrrreeeddd. Boreeeedeeemmm. With first three periods, maths(other school test paper), PE(took charge of a sec 2 class), Chem(test which clearly i didnt study for) Recess and than last 2 periods were timed practice. After school had briefing for June Holidays.

Wooaahhh.. lemme tell ya. The schedule is really damn hectic i tell ya. We only have a weeks worth of holiday WHICH i dun think so i'll be taking since i need LOADS of practice and revision for most of my subs. Now tell me, what do you do when you have such hectic schedule for holidays PLUS rashes all over your body and you cant stop scratching PLUS a few important events coming up. What do you do? Tell me? what? well, there is one;

SSSSCCCCREEEAAAAMMMMM FOR JUSTICE!!!

Okay im officially stressed up right now, how can i tell? cos the left side of my head is starting to feel heavy. Which means, my major-headacheness is coming bck. So what do we do? We listen to a certain song that NEVER fails to make us smile :D; white dove.

Suburbancupid;

Morning! all ya beautiful people. Woooo! Its 8.03 am on a Tuesday and im blogging! heeeeeeeeee :D Why the hell? cos im at homeee! and not in schoooool!! Muahahahahah! Initally im suppose to like fetch my sis later this at ard 1 frm school. BUT den i developed rashes all over me so had to skip school. Or else i'll be a walking-scratching-faggot! MUahahaaaaaa. AND IM BORED TO DEATH COS LIKE IM AWAKE AND I CANT GO BACK TO SLEEP -_-"

So what shall i do now? Make some nice hot coffee or tea alongside a nice plate of hot toasted bread spread with butter!! MmmMmm. delicious! (Ehhwaaahh.. suke suke jer eh aku nk relax2? Hoi?? suke jer ehh.. nxt monday Malay Olevel paper 2 oiii.. oiii.. oiiiiiiiiii!) K laaaaaaa.. I'll do more practice papers later on alright!

Alright so Friday's and Sunday's outing pics shall be posted up later on. In the mean time.. i have msgs to attend to :D

In or out of love? Grows by every msg :D

Hello hellooo :D Seems to me that 14th of May of 2008 has indeed been an extremely slendid day for the both of us. But more on that side i can say. Here? Not that bad either :D

Morning, woken up by mum and i shagged myself to the toilet. Washed up and got ready for school. Made my way out and onward to meet sha at the 'school bustop'. After that met with nabila as well. Off to school. Lessons was mainly maths and timed-prac (malay). And a lil bit of english. Ate with bernoullians today. And than yada-yada. Okay what else? Ermmm? Not much i guess.

After school we had malay dance prac and had to teach the others tradisional and yeap! Its hard i tell ya. cos they were not ermm.. "exposed" to malay dance genre yet. But overall not bad. So practiced till at least like 4? And than we slacked the whole way.
IN THE MIDDLE something happened!!! BWWAAAHHHAAAHAHA!! Moody turned upside down :]

Lydia and Sumirah and Anis: Pls do not continue with yr "flicts" You guys a best of friends and b.o.f's dont have flicts like these. I noe its hard to settle this but at least.. okay? we love you guys alot! Its not that im KPO-ing or what but im just concerned. Even though ya, i hav the littlest bit of idea on what the heck is going on, but i tink i noe u guys well enough that u guys love each other very much. Tc!

Called made by a public-phone :]
OMG! haaaaaaaaaa! :D
suburbancupid;

Just got off the phone from an old friend. Hahah not that old. He said i should be weary of my feelings and not get too carried away. (Hmmmmm.. mayb i shud) He said i should not be too complacent with myself. (Correct) He told me to let go of some things since he thought that the thing that should be let go does not want my company anymore, but only sacrifice. ( Mayb true, i dont even noe wat is going on) Finally he told me " Do not let your conscience take over my feelings. If you really do think so, then go with the first thought that came to mind" ( Woah good words ) Then he asked me this, " Do you have feelings for him? Or you can't cos you felt guilty of what you did to another person??"

( Okay than i was like, erm? Okay shit! I really ( 'Insert something here' ) this person BUT its unfair to this other person. Just because it started from a crush and the feelings began to fade away. But him? Its ! Its like when he looked at me in the eye, i was like, Oh SHIT! not again! He really listens to me and he sound so sincere. Mayb not but who cares! Hahahah thats how i feel but im sure he really is. So? Whats stopping me? STUPID sub-conscience of mine. )

And finally he said, get out of your stupid conscience and pour your feelings for him. And i said, " KAU GILER?!!" And he laughed and said " Tk its just a suggestion. Dont throw away your second chance lah KECIK!" Then i said " BYE la SLENG!" And that was it.

Personally, i think;

Okay hello. Firstly lets start from the tip-top-most! (OKay there is no such thing - watver)

Firstly my plan early-earlier this morning was canceled -_-" Why? cause i fell asleep and mom didnt woke me up! No fair! Anyways brother got bck and was like WHOAAA!! OKay he bought me a new wallet!!! So thoughtful of you. Ahah! He bought for mum a little sometin-something.And dad too. Of course he bought himself some stuff as well. Okay and that's about it. Heee.

Afternoon i was waiting for mum and dad to come bck from johor so that i can go and meet with nunu and ail. SO wen they FINALLY got home i darted out of the house straight away. When i arrived at 414 yan went home. And then we sat. Nunu did her dnt while me and ail slacked. OUH YEAH! And i asked for further details. ( He blushed! Aint that cute? Hehehe! Okay i blushed too. At home okay shuddup) Hahaha hyper hyper hyper.

After we all went to dinner at Bukit Timah's Mad Jack, at Coronation Plaza. WHAT A MEAL! Okay we were all fulled up with the humongous food. Baaah OKay. and now we are back home.Nooooo! Bsok skolaaa.. Okay laaaa. Pergi laa..

Hehehe okay somehow i feel nauseous deep within about it. But nope! Im not going to throw away my second chance :D But thx to nunu! Its like she was the one always got me together. The first time, she told him about the "Cute thing" now. Hehehehe! I feel extremely bonkers!

Okay the bottom one is the first post for today. Than this one :D

WOOOO!!! Brother's coming back in like 3 hours time and im gonna fetch him from the airport. Muahahahahahah!! And yeah so im going to at the airport at like 4 am in the morning. Funny, i should not even be here now. Hahahahahaha.... -_-"

Friday was good. More updates later on. Pics and such :D Ouh and see! Ive edited my blog till it became like this. It was soooo much work, Choosing the bckgrds and measuring the height. It was stupid and tedious but who cares.

AND! There is a reason why i chose these ferris-wheel pictures. Muahahaha

Well hellooooo :D Its time to celebrate! BAAAHH!!

Okay noo! Mayb until this Sunday? Cos ive recieved like 2 warnings from 2 diff teachers. From my physics and chem teacher. They said im weak. Okay i noe im weak. Its just that i need time to build up my foundations and confidence. So give me time. At least until the end of may. And i give you my word that i'll dedicate my time to books. BUT there is always time for my guitar. MUAHAHAHAHAH!

Now im waiting for my bee hoon goreng too arrive. Seriously, it has been a some time since i had one of those. I use to hate them cos they reminded me of a certain someone. But now? WHO GIVES A SHIT?! I LOVE BEE HOON GORENG!! (especially the spicy ones :D)

On board the Singapore Flyer with you,
would definitely be a dream come true.

But dreams don't necessarily come true;

Wooooo! Maths paper over! Yessa! Actually the most gruelling part has yet to past. Time to wait for the results.

I had a moment of weakness during chemistry earlier this morning. Its not that it was not my fault or anything that i could not achieve my goals. But please at least see the effort ive put it. Yea even though it's still a NINE, but look where i started from. Let me remind you that i've started off with a single digit. Now im getting 2 digits. Yes i noe its not that much of a leap but HELLO? Look at me right here! Im struggling as hell to even achive that 2 digit marks. Do u noe? do u? I had little help and i managed alot on my own. Some quetions were asked here and dere. YET by my own initiatif okay. (Not that im complaining alright, im just expressing my thoughts :D)

Its mid-year folks. Not pre-lims. Lets just hope that i can manage with seriously hard bangings with my maths chem and physics during this June holidays.

1. No Birthday celebration for me.
2. No holidays for me.
3. No gigs for me.
4. Guitar-ing and piano-ing has to cut down. ( NOOOOO)
5. TIME TO MUG. ( Lets just hope i stick to this.)

Okay ive changed the song at my blog cause why? __ _______!!!! After like 6 days -_-" and i was like "WOAAAHHH!!!!" ;
Still have no guts to ask. Damn :[ Mayb i shudnt. Its wrong. Boggers!!

Okay currently im waiting for my mum to come home so i can got out! HElloo?? Mother? Like where are you? I need to go out now.. Like hellooo? Yes hellooo? -_-"

Approximately 2 weeks and 5 days, thats 19 days for you. And i still have not the guts to ask yet. Shit. I guess i'll be spending that day alone after all. -_-"

I want FooD!

Spent the rest of the evening at cck area. First we went to ail's house and did some key-boarding and laughing and eating. Hahaha okay at first wen ail's brother got bck we were like " WhHUDDD??" since only me and shab were there. hahaha his brother looks fierce though. Syahir.. aku takot ngn abg kau. Kk so wen the Mc food finally arrived, we dig in and yup. Sooooo

After that we went downstairs to study instead at ail's house. It was awkward.. Alright then we met Mardy BUM! hahah no laaa. Its Mardy only. K soooo we walked to where there were tables and chairs and began our study. And then after that off we went to

HOME!!!

Okay i guess i have to really get this song out of my head;

Greetings! -_-" hahaaa

For the record, this song is damn special to me. It just carries that amount of significance to me :D Everytime i listen to this song, my mind just goes "VSSHHHOOOOMM" flashback!!! and there he is... awwwww... OKAY Enough!

Now lets see what happened yesterday? Not much. We went around and around. Then met shab and then met sha and then ryan and there was hidayah and who i duno. Okay den we ate at mc cafe and mc and then we took the train home. Taadaaa.. All done :D

Going to study later with all the other bosses :D
There is, boss tembam boss busuk boss cute boss EYES boss (tk tau uhh) okay done!
Wooosshh.. Im nt sure if dad lets me out again. Muahaha. PLsss :D Mayb they wanna eat satay. Yuuummmm :]

I cant believe that mum approved of it sooo much. Now the only thing left is to ask. But i dun think i'll be asking cos i feel its wrong. And yes im damn scared to do soo. HELP!!

People keep saying that you only get one chance in life. Second chances comes to those who are lucky enough. I guess i am one of those unlucky once. Well, it was something that i had but didn't treasured. I lost something or rather someone who understood me. I guess we didn't get through until the end. I was such an ass to give up and listen to knock-head advice's which clearly did not come to any sense. As said, i had my chance and i don't think i will be getting a second.

I am the stupid cupid.

Jeeehhhh!!!! -_-"

What the hell was that? hahah i have no idea either. HUaaaa.. Its labour day today and YES! No paper! But there's Malay and Chem paper 2mr -_-" DAMN! Back to books. How lame can that be? Huh? eh? EH? tell me uhh... Come on man... tell me. Ape lyn? bbual sendiri? Diam lah.

Okay okay... i'll blog for real now. Lets see. tuesday night we studied again. At blk 414. Hohoho lemme tell you. So many things can happen at night. Noo seriously. hahaha no see.. everyone's like so excited. What were we excited about? THE END OF O'LEVES!! WOOOO!!! hahahah. Though thats like a million hours away. But still? Jehhh... Come on guys we can do it. Heh. Look at me. Im the one who's like pushing through so much. And im not showing much results in my studies. Lets just see at the end of this mid-years.

Mum could be buying 2 tickets for me. Tickets for what? Le Singapour Flyuor! Muahahaha. Pls ibu beli.. Plsss... Hmmm.. Who will i be going with? MUahahahah! OK bye!

You can never imagine how much im regreting now; one more chance. Just one. But time cannot be turned back.