"Babe. Performance in June canceled, Our Big Break is gone... Sorry" (msg recieved from Khai 2 mins ago) NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE HECK??? SO LOOKING FORWARD... SHIT!!!!!!!! NO MOOODDDDDDD!!!!!! Dont want to do paper tomorrow!! (okay kidding) BUT STILL!!!! NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! YAAARRGHHH!!!

Okay back to books. CB!!!!! FCUK!! DAMN!!!!!! GAAARRRHHHH!!!!!!!!

Woooshh.. Its like 1.36 am and boo! Here i am. Currently im scouting for phrases and expressions for laters EL paper. Yes ppl MYE is finally here. And for us folks, its our pre-prelims. Imagine that, we have 2 prelims. What the heck.. Can they kill us any further? Whats worst is that we'll have to continue lessons as per usual and then take our papers in the afternoon -_-" Now tell me, how eccentric can that get. Okay yes even though we have the monday off but what bout the other papers? heelloooooo? Teachers? LM? ALM? Mr Azhar? Anybody?? Behhh.. OKay fine.

Ahah! Since its already monday so yes. Yesterday( as in just now sunday) both me and sha took the time off from our studies and loosen up! MUahahahahah! (sempat... -_-) Oh yea before that, saw the big sis at cck interchg.. hohoho her bro's in Orion squad. Gd luck! And yes bck to topic. Sorry lydia and other gfs.. that we didnt invite u ladies along with us. Its sort of just blurted out and lets go out now and all of sudden thing. so yea. soorrryy. Anyway.. First we went to wisma and walked ard. Bored.. then onward to heren. Bored again.. then bck to fareast. I WANT THAT CAP!!! Okay mayb after M.Y.E -_-" Bummer..

So after that off to bugis. Sha bought something. I bought something. Okay done. Den otw home we laughed and died. hahahah no laaa.. In that case i wont be blogging now would i.. So naahhh. In the train, both of us were like waiting.. for what? I have no idea. Okay so now im taking a break off the books. Wish me luck for later's paper :D gd luck to me!!!

No seriously; why am i waiting? I've been the one who made the mistake and now i regret. But still... I cant get it off my mind.

Suburbancupid :]

Today.

Woken up by Qila at ard 7.55, soo hurriedly rushed to the bathroom and blah blah blah. Yada yada.. went out of the house at ard 8.35 or so.. Took the bus and met qila at the bustop and off to physics! Mdm Sumarni prepared light refreshments for us to eat while she teaches. Awwww so nice of you cher. Thx :D And than after lesson ended at 12.30 we zoomed of to lot 1 and had our breakfast/lunch. Ooohh yeah after that went to popuplar and bought some pens. And now im at home.

YESTERDAY.

First and foremost, we met at cntrl station. And than took bus to penin bustop and walked to esplanade. While they watched the performance first without us, i wen and took sha frm the marina steps since she took the Mrt bcos of some dilema.. ( sori shaaaa ) Okay den we joined them. He cut his hair. Oryte den we watched the first slot for like oni 10 mins den we went to marina square and eat. Haziq sure has alot of friends. hahahha. Soooo went bck to powerhouse and waited for O@G's second slot. While waiting we mostly threw stones at each other and alot got inside me -_-" And yes of course.. Being who we are.. we laughed at most ppl. Muahahahahah. And yes after endless minutes later....

IT STARTED!! WOOOOO!!!. OKay -_- but the crowd was a little boring. Though there were sooooooooooooooo many ppl. Everyone just stood there at moved about their own spot. I was continously disturbed by someone during the entire performance and kept on mumbling on my own. Muahahahaha. He cut his hair. All in all, the band was awwwweeessssoommmeeee.... but the lead singer wore traditional pants. Hahahahahah!!! and the bassist looked like an apek. hahahahahahah!!!!! sooo after the peformance we went straight home leaving shab wif her friends.

-Jamming canceled since we all wanted to watch the peformance
-Not much pictures were taken
-I can never forget this night.

Though the mood that i had for today was straight suckish, I kept forcing myself to cheer up during lessons and such. Basically school ended at ard 3.30 so went straight up to canteen and i did the teeniest amount of revision that could possibly be done. The DnT students had their first day of workshop today :] GO GO DnT BERNOULLIANS!!! YOU HAVE OUR AEM-ness SUPPORT!!! GOOOO!! hahah dont give up oryte guys. Though its plainly suckish and tiring, but just think what you can achieve by the end of everything. And when that day comes, i assure you that everyday is a holiday!! Whoo! Okay im all pshcyed up for no reason -_-" hooooo..

Okay! Somehow or rather i think that tomorrow's going to be one hell of a day for me. Just imagine. O@G!!!!!!!!!! What the helll!! Come one ppl get excited. One two FIVE!! Im excited elated anxious and whatever else that mayb slotted in. SO YEA. The sad part is that its gonna be the last for at least 6 to 8 more months? boo hoooo.. What shall i wear?? Hmmm...Lets JAM!

Mr Ex. You have been true to your words all this while. Though sometimes you might be a little late on the promises but you did keep them. You've proven alot to me, yet i still feel this sense of unsecurity and like Qila said.. i should be permanently phobia-ed to even be communicating with you again. All those kind gestures that you had done for me in the past. The past was a mistake, we both made it and regretted deeply on it. But are you really going to keep up to this new promise you made to me. And the answer to your doubts all this while; yes i am still mad at you for what had happen that night. Till you give me a good backup answer to why? My mind will never get rid of those horrid memoirs.

You shall have 'forever' to explain to me.

Suburbancupid. Its whats the devil has become.

Yeah done! :] hahaha. Not a gd job i must say. But... Who cares. Just got so fcuked up with the previous backgrd. MUahahahahahahah. I'll edit more afterwards. Right now im waiting for the right time to get ready. Having night study later and im suppose to meet the rest of the bernoullians at 7.30. Wooo okay go. Lets finish up some history revision. Later dudes and dudettes.

P.s: Im irritated with fcuked up fakers and two-face bitches. Stop toying with their feelings. Yr just a rookie. So dont try to be a bee-yatch. Ok so dont be. Whats happening man. All those ppl with innocent faces are actually cold hearted, thick-headed beings -_-"

soo if i offend anyone, my sincerest apologies. Shoosh. ooohh and why is there a considerable sum of "fcuked" words in this post? oooohhh? hahahah

SuburbancupiD :]

Eh ppl guess what...

I just realised that ALEX TURNER IS DAMN CUTE!!!! OMG!! CUTE CUTE CUTE!!!!! Hohoho.. Not just realise actually, just to shy to admit. Hahahaha. But who cares!!! Sorry Nunu.. hahaha i guess we both think his cute. So ppl his cute! hahah! ALEX TURNER!!! Imma fan now. Damn!

Now look at that face. hahahaha :D okay bck to studying -_-"

As far as im concern. My life stinks damn hard from where im standing. Alot and i mean ALOT has been happening to me. I rejected, well probably the one an only step for me to go ahead (not that im complaining cos i rejected it myself) and yes i got myself into a HEAP LOADS of trouble. Not to mention all those paperwork i have to redo again -_-" whats the point. Even mayb i'll be way more appreciated there than here... Gahh what the heck. Does it even matter? Nahh.. dont think so. Yes and i recently experienced a seriously severe headache that was not at all the most pleasant things i could have experince in my life. Well actually ive been having them occasionally but yet again, what the heck.

I've hurt someone so deeply that i feel hurt so bad that ive eaten so much which i shudnt and the worst part is, i haven been exercising, So i guess i'll get fat. Yeah you like that dont ya??? Im so sorry to whoever you are.. its just that im burning so much under pressure that ive hurt myself physically just to manage these things which i dont think im ready for yet. Im just a girl trying to get by her teen years. I cant elaborate much okay.. I noe you and yr frens will hate me but i too need to live my life. I cant be ushering to peopls needs and leave my own hanging in midair. Seriously im sorry that we got messed up and i was the one who messed it up. Someone like me certainly do not deserve someone like you.

Mayb you'll wait.. but the feelings will eventually fade away. So many guys in my life have been there and gone. No one stood by me.. i was alone. I probably the same thing now. No one will go through what i've been now. Its so easy for people to say "OUHH YEAHH... I UNDERSTAND YOU COMPLETELY.." yeahh.. mayb but its not the same. Mayb yr life might be simillar. Like i said, MIGHT. So yes.. Hate me all you want.. But at least listen to my side of the story.. than if you ppl still hate me than its yr problem. Cos i noe ive saddened one of the most cheerry guy in school. He deserves better than this someone who is blogging this blog now. So fuck off and get the hell away from me. Im just trying to save whats left of me.

Okay the last bit mayb a little harsh. Sorry.

imsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorry

Studies are killing me slowly.

Yesterdays's Jamming session was a hit! We actually manage to finish our list of songs and still hav 30 mins left :D so we repeated it again. Heheeee.. So now finally ive learnt the song by artic monkeys. Muahahaha. So its left with mcfly umbrella. But i tink thats not gonna be too hard. So now im currently guitaring and waiting for those 2 sissy's to come. Since im stuck with babysitting. TOodles!

Suburbancupid :]
hehee..
Yo yo you!

Evening people. For the first time ever i could not finish my 'Nasi Goreng Kampung(Extra hot)' hohooho. Mayb that is why i couldnt finish it. Its just too hot.

SO. We had apex day today. Unfortunately me sha qila nabila and sathiya were VERY late. But it doesnt seem to matter to the teachers. Weird huhh... Okay sooo i took part in freezbie hahahahah okay. All the plans ended up changing the very last minute. OKay so after apex day, we went to eat at 'Adam Road' but i oni had a strawberry milk juice or something like that. Than after that we took the bus to cck at sat ard blk 412. We sang talked discuss shared and even had a choir harmony with the Dunearn dudes sitting close to us. Hahahah it was fun.. Sha and i met wif the 4D's for awhile and there was a 'TIKAR' hahahah.. okayyy... Den went bck to bernoulli and that was when the singing session started. After singing we shared ghost stories and each others personal experience. And we had Mr Muhammad Farhan to share one of the most EXCITING stories, muahahahaha. Gd for you... Im proud. So after that we packed up and went home.

Yeahhh yeahh... Bsok jamming...!!
bahh.. Okay..

this is so wrong,
im trying my best to not;

Suburbancupid :]

GaaaHHhh!! Look at this! Isnt it the most beautiful thing you have ever seen? OKaay mayb not for you but for meee! me! me! MEE!!! Mee maaggi!! arh mepek. hahaha okay soo here's the plan. See, if i ever get to poly and my dream course which is hospitality and resort management in NYP or Tourism in SP, i would get my license and get myself one of this babies ( in orange and black :] ) and drive myself to poly!!! woohoooo!!!! Okay apparently this vespa belongs to my bro's fren. His name is Idris or sumthing. So if he like happens to stumble upon here.. den ermm. Apologies :] heheheee i just reli love yr bike!! woohoooo!! VEspaaa!! This makes me wanna stay more man. OK fine watever.

Sooooo.. 2mr is Monday and that means school -_-" okay okay. Haven packed my things haven do my shoes. I have more than half of homework to be done. And im sooo not in the mood for one of them Monday blues. So gd luck to me for school 2mr and toodles to you!

A new crush has been made. But it feels so wrong.

Suburbancupid :]