Heyloo folks. Okay this picture to me is really weird. Wanna know why? Cause i never i repeat, NEVER did smiled like this before. EVER! Hah okay. So this would be the first then. K SO, it has not even been the end of January and im already itching my ass off to go back to school. I misssssss school. I miss being in a classroom. I miss having the teachers babbling infront of me and most of all I miss them saying " Lyn?! Whats so funny? Please pay attention." (Mr Lee in particular) hahah. OKay so i suck at his subject still, I miss his lesson. HIS LESSON. NOT HIM.

To keep you in and everyone else out; Im building a wall all round me.

Bday boy all excited

Make a wish dude!

Okay so first and foremost; A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUHAMMAD HAZIQ BIN HASHIM!Okay so he turned seventeenth yesterday which was on the 20th of January. Well technically we it was today that we celebrated his birthday, simply because it was just now. AND because i have not slept yet sooo its today? uh? WTH. mahaha. Well it was only a minor gathering mainly because i guess it was all too last minute. Hahahah. Luckily sheek and I managed to find a good quality cake! Yummm. WHICH ended up in haziq's ear and also some smeared all over his body. Hahaha. HAZIQ a msg for you!

Well okay. SO yeah you turned 17 already. So fast eyy. It almost seems like it was only yesterday that I first knew you, which was what? Sec 1? hahaha. I've really seen you grown from a child, to a ermm bigger version of a child ( you know what I mean, no offence) and finally to a good'ol young adult ^_^ I wish you all life's greatest pleasure and pleeeeaaaassseee study hard so we can all reunite in poly :DD You're the best-stupid-beloest friend someone like me could have. I still remembered the time you shoved that "mary-biscuit" in your mouth during history lesson. hahaha Hillarious bro. Well that's all I have for ya. Actually there's more but than people will start to call me long winded. hahahah. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY!


Now. You see food. MUAHAHAHAHAH! Obviously its back to me again :DDD Food and Lyn never fails to escape each other. So this is my supper ^_^ durian puffs :] Tam2 crackers :] Plain water -_-" andddd Vanilla tea :DDDDD MUAHAHAH! EH! At least no coffee okay. Whats the plan tomorrow? I have no idea. hahahah. I dont see my purpose anymore. At least when there was school, I had studies and classes were my purpose. When there was ermmm someone, making sure that someone was okay and happy was my purpose. Now? My purpose is to EAT! hahahah. Anyone looking for a writer? I'll do freelancing :D Woahh cheeyy. since when am i a certified writer? hey i might be :D who knows.

Haunted by my own thoughts; -_- i hate this.

Okay this is seriously getting irritating. Why? Cause all this too much thinking is seriously keeping me from going to sleep. Yessss! I simply just cant shut my eyes shut because of all the ruckuss that is going on in my head. So i have decided that before i get MAJOR panda eyes for tomorrow, I just had to let this out. Okay here goes. I promise that this will be my last and FINAL "emo" post. Okay wait, this isnt exactly an "emo" post. Im not emo, I just have a lot of stuff going on in my head. Its different okay.

OKAY OKAY OKAY! I'm not letting it out. Its just too erm... deep? Hey havent you noticed? I am seriously NOT someone who blurts out intimate things. Yeah okay maybe sometimes BUT not all the time and i definitely dont wanna make this into a "all the time" thing. So I shall keep it in. HAPPY? - Looks like im not gonna visit the sandman today -_-"

But I know one thing's for sure, that I am very much; TET! Im not gonna say. NO NO NOOO!!

SIAK ARH! (oooo my first malay vulgarity that ive posted. EVER!) I think im talking to myself. Nooo seriously. Its like im entertaining my stupid sub-conscience. YEAH! Its true. Eeeesshh! Okay I am going bezzerk 0.O I need help.

Suburbancupid; waiting?

My Best Bud ^_^

OOOOOUUHHKK! First and foremost, my moment of emo-ness is done and i have nooo idea what i'll do next but still you're the best.

RESULTS; okay my L1R4 is 19 including CCA. I guess this is VERY much okay for someone like me. But i'll probably be going to RP :D who cares. Its a diploma anyways and thats all that counts to me. After that i dont whats next but i know for sure its gonna be diploma first. OUHK! so now i have one less thing to worry about, its time to get back into shape. SO starting from tomorrow im gonna resume my "training". NINE OCLOCK IN THE MORNING- JOGGGG!!

im seriously trying my best to think otherwise; but still im not quite sure what you were intending. Although i kept saying to people that im over you.
truth is; i lied

After 2 weeks i finally realised it. I guess worrying too much over my results made me stumble across some unpleasant thoughts. Which are they? The fact that from the start, i've always had the feeling that the words that were coming out of your mouth were never true. Yes they werent. Why? cause i know that deep down you're still lingering over someone elses memories. Too bad that the person wasnt me. I cant believe that i finally figured this out right this very moment. The moment where i should be worrying over something else. I ended up crying my ass off over this. Does this hurt me? Ermmm i would be definitely lying that this didnt hurt at all. I just cant imagine the guilt that has been burning inside of you since the moment you said "i love you" to me. Why didnt you tell me from the start? Dont lie to me that you didnt think we were too fast. I couldnt say no to your face. You were only clouded by your emotions which was clearly uncertain. I know it was also partly my fault for not bringing this up to you earlier. I keep denying and denying the obvious. I guessed i denied too much till it was too late. I know i wasnt being the "bestest gf" ever. But still;

You wanna know whats the saddest part of this whole thing? Was that you actually managed to steal my heart away from someone who has already done it earlier. But now i think that it was selfish of you to that. Why? cause you had no intention of keeping it at all. I hope that you would give me back my heart so that i can keep it away from everyone else in this world. No more.. no more;

I bound to myself that i will never EVER EVER develop intimate feelings for anyone again. It has only been mid January and ive broken my resolution. -to not have my heart severely broken ever again. too bad it already has. I wished you hadnt said those three words to me.

It takes no time to fall in love. Why? cause your mind is always fickling and your thoughts has never been true to you. It takes forever to know what love is. Why? Cause it only takes forever for your heart to finally wake up and realise that your thoughts and emotions has taken over and making a fool of it.

Right now. Hurt? yes. Hate you? Never. I will never be able to hate you. Concern towards you? Yes because your only human. Am I still in love with you? Why would i want to love someone who doesnt love me from the start.

Now this are only my feeings. Tell me wether i misinteparated wrongly. Cause ive been doing so this past 2 weeks. If im wrong. Please do tell me; tell me if my conscience are wrong and that you actually do, DID meant it when you said "I l o v e y o u"; cause you can never imagine how im feeling right now.

Evening folks. Currently im sitting in my room stressing my guts out about tomorrow. I still cant find my uniform and i have no idea wether i can enter school tomorrow with my hair. shit shit shit. Well forget about the hair! Its all about the result. hmmmm.. See i cant even type properly now. My hands are seriously shivering. i guess its the spasms coming in. geeeeeeeeee~ help? I reaaaallly am not ready for this. This is sooo much worst than breaking up or lying to your parents.

Now on a different note; heheh now THAT is HOT and CUTE! hahahaha. They're Matt and Josh from A Vacant Affair. Okay firstly lemme point out that im a fan not bcos of the mancandies hahahha but because of their music. AWESSSOMMME. I thought of buying their new album :D We shall see how my result goes. Woahh results again. I cant take this no longer.

Support local talent folks;

okay folks this is serious. Please update your blogs or else someone's out to kill you.

ANYWAYS;
Yesterday followed the guys to town and bugis since they wanna shop for some stuff. But seriously watching those guys shop, i think shopping with them is the same as shopping with the girls. Yeah seriously. Guys can be picky at times. I hope they dont do that with girls. Gahahahah jkjk. (Tkmo marah yer abg-abgzzzz) Btw you guys shop well. Not "leceh" at all. And then after bugis it was straight back homee.

Today went to temasek poly and NANYANG POLY (WOOOOO~). First up went to temasek first and met up with the two then off to NANYANG POLY (WOOOOO~) and met up with other ppl. The courses there are not bad and i think temasek might be good. But still its far sooo i dont know. NYP has always been a choice for me. But HEY it all depends on the results. Speaking of which, I AM SERIOUSLY FREAKING OUT HERE. Everyday every second, it draws nearer. I seriously dont know what to expect. Hmmmm..

AND GUESS WHAT? I get to watch. JENG JENG JENGGGG
A VACANT AFFAIR!!! AND THEY WERE AWESOMEEEEEEEEE~ Im gonna watch them again 2mr at SP. This time im gonna bring along MA CAMERA! RECORD DUDE RECORD!!! Plain sunset was also awesome. FantastiCO! Hahahah okay why the hell am i blogging like this?? Reason being? Im sooooooooo scared about the results. I guess this is what we call; Pre-o'level results jitterbugs. Mahahah
Btw LASER QUEST WAS ALSO AWEESSOMMME!! It was like CS LIVE!! COOL!

Okay i better stop now before i type the hell out of my keys.
Thinking of;
i dont know.

Heyya! Finally I got a chance to kickback at chill at my balcony ^_^V. With spongebob on at the TV and the laptop on the small table and OF COURSE not forgetting my homemade White Coffee right beside it. YEaahhh HEH! This is life :D

Anyways since there were no plans for today, i cleaned out and by clean, i really mean it. CLEAAAANN. I even cleaned out my brother's secondary school books. Can you imagine that? HIS SECONDARY SCH BOOKS??!! Yeah he has kept his books till now. What the hell for? I have no idea. SO in place for those books.. I KEPT MINE IN THERE! HAHAHAHAHA, So i guess it'll be a tradition that the siblings in this house shall keep sec sch books up till 6 years then. Mahahahah. What the hell. Ouh and i have also arranged
my wardrobe neatly. Eheheh. And rearranged all my stuff so my room is Officially CLEEEEAAAN :D Soooo Now I have no idea what to do tomorrow. Thought of going to Rp's open house. Hmmm.









SEE ya! And i mean it.
Okay im being random.

The first day of the year Two Thousand And Nine (okay fine its the 2nd already but im still posting as yesterday)

What i do today? Went to eat at Al-azhar with the Family and hell yeah, i ate ALOT as in ALLLOOOOTTT! Okay i think you guys get the picture that i ate a lot yeah? Done. Eheh so Yan asked me this question just now, "Asl kau suke makan Indian food eyy?" NOW the answer to that question my friend is;

"I JUST LOVE TO EAT" Bwahahahahahah. Okay im not laughing actually. Im sad okay, real sad. You know sad as in Sadddd. Devastated. Depressed. Crushed. Hurt. Broken.
Ouh my god no; im being emo.

After Al-azhar, went home first to help yaya wrap her school books with that stupid plastic wrap. ERGGGHH! ( after 16 god damn years i thought i never had to this ever again, wrong!) Then went bck out to meet up with Yan at cck and we headed off to Fareast. EAT yet again then walked walked, and to Heren, check the size but too big. Hah okay so went on to penin area there and TAADDDAAAA! Finally found a size that is actually decent enough for my small feet. Paid and Here i am!

i got kicks man :D
the misses are coming; shyet, i hate this.