Woooots. Okay finally im updating. Hahah its a miracle -_- okay so far, Hari Raya has been okay. Collected a fine sum of money :D right. If i haven spent 33 bucks on crumpler. i wud hav more. but hell yeah. Finally bought one. Hav been pending and pending all this while. Hahah okay. I always delay my stuffs cos i noe de money will b needed for other things. Am i being selfish to myself? naah dun tink so. I tink im cruel to me. Do u tink so?

Lets shift the topic. People like me? Its damn hard to find peace or happiness or erm jus someone who stays by me. I dun hav peace all de time. I dun stay happy all the time. yes i laugh, but its jus cover up. See? ppl dun even care that im jus pretending. Im the biggest faker anyone has ever known. Reason why? cos im not the type who wans attention being drawn to me. De oni attention i wan is attention from peace, happiness and someone or something. I nvr cared dat others who dun deserve wat dey hav... cud hav wat i really wan in a blink of an eye. They might hav lost something so dear to them. They pretend to be so effing remorse over it but den, wat u find? u find them wif someone else. Yes i said i nvr actualli cared. Till nw, cos u noe why? i realised that ITS NOT FAIR NOT FAIR NOT FAIR!!!!

U noe why its not fair? cos i tink i deserve it. I deserve YOUR peace, YOUR happiness and SOMEONE or SOMETHING to jus share my peace and happiness and success and everything. Wat i feel is that YOU hav been stealing it frm me frm de very first moment i wanted something and u had to b in de picture as well. YOU AND YOUR SOMEONE AND ANOTHER ONE.
Ouh yeah. To you. u tink that u are the culprit. u are innocent. Tink again buddy, you're wrong. Cos u noe why? YOU hav been de one all this while. I realised it nw. U pretend to care but actuali you wan de attention of being a caring person. u pretend this u pretend that. all this while u hav been over-shadowing me. THATS wats keeping me like this. of being so low of myself. u tink u so great cos yr great and perfect? i dun tink so. U took away of wats rightfully to be mine.

eh listen here. i may b ugly and short and half-witted, but i am seriously NOT STUPID. i can diffrentiate a faker and truely pure person. why? cos im the biggest faker u've ever known. and i herby declare that your a faker. and do not need to pretend anymore around me. mayb youre nice to me cos u wan to look nice and let ppl compare btwn u and me. cos y? youre the preetier one. and it feels so gd to u dat u hear other ppl being critisised bcos of your fame and glory.

If u tink u hav the guts. come straight up to me and tallk to me. and this time. stop denying wat u already did and saying that u didnt.

im an ugly fugly bitch who isnt such a nice fren. Im de worst fren u cud ever had. so? get away frm me. cos im yr ugly fren who has no peace and happiness and someone or something to share it wif

Im nothing.