After 2 weeks i finally realised it. I guess worrying too much over my results made me stumble across some unpleasant thoughts. Which are they? The fact that from the start, i've always had the feeling that the words that were coming out of your mouth were never true. Yes they werent. Why? cause i know that deep down you're still lingering over someone elses memories. Too bad that the person wasnt me. I cant believe that i finally figured this out right this very moment. The moment where i should be worrying over something else. I ended up crying my ass off over this. Does this hurt me? Ermmm i would be definitely lying that this didnt hurt at all. I just cant imagine the guilt that has been burning inside of you since the moment you said "i love you" to me. Why didnt you tell me from the start? Dont lie to me that you didnt think we were too fast. I couldnt say no to your face. You were only clouded by your emotions which was clearly uncertain. I know it was also partly my fault for not bringing this up to you earlier. I keep denying and denying the obvious. I guessed i denied too much till it was too late. I know i wasnt being the "bestest gf" ever. But still;

You wanna know whats the saddest part of this whole thing? Was that you actually managed to steal my heart away from someone who has already done it earlier. But now i think that it was selfish of you to that. Why? cause you had no intention of keeping it at all. I hope that you would give me back my heart so that i can keep it away from everyone else in this world. No more.. no more;

I bound to myself that i will never EVER EVER develop intimate feelings for anyone again. It has only been mid January and ive broken my resolution. -to not have my heart severely broken ever again. too bad it already has. I wished you hadnt said those three words to me.

It takes no time to fall in love. Why? cause your mind is always fickling and your thoughts has never been true to you. It takes forever to know what love is. Why? Cause it only takes forever for your heart to finally wake up and realise that your thoughts and emotions has taken over and making a fool of it.

Right now. Hurt? yes. Hate you? Never. I will never be able to hate you. Concern towards you? Yes because your only human. Am I still in love with you? Why would i want to love someone who doesnt love me from the start.

Now this are only my feeings. Tell me wether i misinteparated wrongly. Cause ive been doing so this past 2 weeks. If im wrong. Please do tell me; tell me if my conscience are wrong and that you actually do, DID meant it when you said "I l o v e y o u"; cause you can never imagine how im feeling right now.