As far as im concern. My life stinks damn hard from where im standing. Alot and i mean ALOT has been happening to me. I rejected, well probably the one an only step for me to go ahead (not that im complaining cos i rejected it myself) and yes i got myself into a HEAP LOADS of trouble. Not to mention all those paperwork i have to redo again -_-" whats the point. Even mayb i'll be way more appreciated there than here... Gahh what the heck. Does it even matter? Nahh.. dont think so. Yes and i recently experienced a seriously severe headache that was not at all the most pleasant things i could have experince in my life. Well actually ive been having them occasionally but yet again, what the heck.

I've hurt someone so deeply that i feel hurt so bad that ive eaten so much which i shudnt and the worst part is, i haven been exercising, So i guess i'll get fat. Yeah you like that dont ya??? Im so sorry to whoever you are.. its just that im burning so much under pressure that ive hurt myself physically just to manage these things which i dont think im ready for yet. Im just a girl trying to get by her teen years. I cant elaborate much okay.. I noe you and yr frens will hate me but i too need to live my life. I cant be ushering to peopls needs and leave my own hanging in midair. Seriously im sorry that we got messed up and i was the one who messed it up. Someone like me certainly do not deserve someone like you.

Mayb you'll wait.. but the feelings will eventually fade away. So many guys in my life have been there and gone. No one stood by me.. i was alone. I probably the same thing now. No one will go through what i've been now. Its so easy for people to say "OUHH YEAHH... I UNDERSTAND YOU COMPLETELY.." yeahh.. mayb but its not the same. Mayb yr life might be simillar. Like i said, MIGHT. So yes.. Hate me all you want.. But at least listen to my side of the story.. than if you ppl still hate me than its yr problem. Cos i noe ive saddened one of the most cheerry guy in school. He deserves better than this someone who is blogging this blog now. So fuck off and get the hell away from me. Im just trying to save whats left of me.

Okay the last bit mayb a little harsh. Sorry.

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