Well actuali sch holidays is nothing fun for me at "ALL". Its like one after another it's been coming in. First is u. Den after that ok. Den u. Dat after i got over it. den u. I tot i wud jus live the thing dere cos i noe u are not a bitchy kinda person. fullstop. den nooooooo it went onnnnn. Ya ok fine i noe who you are and i noe u. At least i tink so. Ppl always tink dat its soooo easy doing all this things dat i do. Ya laaaa to dem its so easy cos dey oni need to say, "ohhh jus let it go" or "let ppl overlook you its jus fine" or "jus be me". Well i am being me. dats wat i hated de most undrstand? bcos its not dat easy acting to be like me. I hate me. I nvr get what i want. I always loose out on everything. I am so stupid i cant even pass my mid yr. I am not pretty. oh ya aku tau mest ader yg ckp. Ouhhh tau pon yg kau tk lawa. Eh aku tau laaa sbab tu aku ckp bodoh. and ppl can jus walk pass me and not noe me. I am not saying dat not being so well known is a bad thing. but sumtimes its just so nice to hav ppl notice on wat u hav done for other ppl.
Wen dey noe dat u hav helped others and dat dey appreciate it and say thanks. Not wen u step out of the house and wen u walk ard de ppl u had helped once jus walk pass u like u hav nothing at all for dem. I dun expect like huge gratitude. But jus a simple thx and being appreciated dats all. If u dun even wan to do this simple thing for me den i hav no say.


If you people dun wan me in yr life den its fine. Cos i noe im not up to yr standards. Im not pretty or well known like all of you. I dun hav a boyfren and i dun hav alot of u dat i can treasure. So you see i oni hav a handful of things so pls tell me do u wan to keep me or throw me away. Its better to be thrown away den being kept but not appreciated. I absoulutely hav no idea wat u ppl hav been talking about me. If you tink dat im jus a fucking irritating bitch you jus want to ask symphathy den u are wrong cos dats not me. Im jus telling wat i feel. I cant keep it anymore. Its not easy keeping a whole lot of feeling in one unstable soul. All the friendships dat i hav been in. I hav always been overlooked and unappreciated. Mayb u ppl do appreciate i dun noe. But to me its has always been this way. Do i wan to keep this friendship? of course i do. You ppl are all i hav. Like i say i dun hav anything else. Do u wan to keep me? or throw me away. Tell me. People keep coming and going in my life. U ppl hav came. but i certainly dun wan u ppl to go. If u tink dat i am some extra part. den i hav no say.