How I wish i could sit on a swing and swing all my troubles away. Unfortunately when you're turning 17 and you're me; problems don't just swing away from your life. What to do, what to do. So many different ways i've tried. Yet, every single one of them failed to make me feel whats the word? Ermmm.. Thats right "happy" again. No more "ecstatications" for me no longer. I want to laugh and mean it. I want to make stupid jokes and actually laugh at them cause no one usually does. I want to talk all the time and make people wonder at how much i can actually talk without stopping. I want to eat soooo much so that I dont look as if i conceive drugs. I want to wake up every morning and actually say to myself that, "Hey I love my life and no amount of money in the world could be set up to it"

Too bad now, I just want to get out of this mess! I hate it here! I would give anything to trade my life for another. ( Okay actually no; Im just being impetuos here. bare with me ) I soooo wish for a strong up-right being to be right by my side now. Someone who would say that things are okay although it clearly seems otherwise. Someone who would say that he'll stick by me no matter how brutal things'll get. Someone who could make me feel all better after a bad flict here only by saying; Things'll get better cause here I am, and all that matters is you.
Guess what? That'll never happen. Looks like i'll have to go through this the "Human way"

The "human way" means the real way in fantasy. Whereby i've always been busy endulging myself into. Now i know that fantasys and me dont go well hand in hand. It only exsits for a brief moment of time. I dont belong to that group of people where life is always peaches and creams and that problems are tiny specks of dust that you could just blow away. For me, my problems are huge boulders that i'll have to push away slowly, one timid push at a time.

Okay look, on a little brighter side; I've won myself a pair of tickets to watch Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Live :D Okay now there's something for me to grin about :DDD Now wait, another thing is. Who the hell am i going to give the other ticket to? -_-". Brother? He'll be at camp. Or sheek? Mayb i'll give it to peanut, since he's the one who hasnt asked me ever since ive gotten those tics in my grasps. Pan, you want? Hahahahahah. Or maybe i'll just do it the fair way. "EINEY MEENEEY MIINENEEEY MOOOO!"
I've got to get a grip of myself!!!! Okay Im working later -_-" and not at westmall but the other job at Suntec city. Oh my damn.

Youre not the worst of my problems now. I have bigger troubles;