Ok its saturday and i shud update. duh i am updating -_- ouh yea. Its already sunday and its so early sunday and im still up. Go to sleep? dun wan to. Jus drank this drink which i'm sure will keep me up. darn, but dats de intention though. hoho. today was just fine.

The thing dat made today so F'ked up is this thought that i had in my mind since this afternoon. Its a pretty big thought i can gurantee that. The fact that im jus waiting and doing nothing jus bothers me soooo much. but wat can i do. i cant do a thing. i jus can. even if i wan to. i cant, thats jus the way it is, And this absolutely suck big time. how can ppl live this way? oh yea... oni ppl like me cud. those pampered ones? not a possible thing for them. im sorry.

well dats jus besides my point. Alright, my point is that i jus dun wan to sit ard and wait. i wud reli like to do sumthing about it. even then, if i loose it? i wudnt mine. well i wud. but not this much.

SuburbancupiD :]

____; i just can't smile on you no more.