Perhaps i might not be the first person to say this. But my life now.. Is pretty much wrecked. Okay i said WRECKED. Not destroyed or imma gonner or ermm im hopeless. Noooooo.. i did not mention that.. so im not partially demotivated.. YET.

Its been 2 weeks since i touched my bass and wats worst. Is that i cant even rmmbr when was the last time that i laid my fingers on the piano and my foot on the pedal and yes that melodiest echo that never fails to make me go - woooooo~ Haaa it may sound stupid to some of you but it aint stupid to me. The Piano is my life and music is my food. And yes there is this thing called "studies" now THAT is my digestive system :]

And now i hav no idea where the hell am i heading toward. What am i aiming for. What am i going to do when i like ermm graduated? Scholarships? Take it or leave it. If i take it. What the hell am i leaving behind? All this are like shimmers in a pond.. Its like.. it appears and than vanishes after some time.

Tempting it is. But... What will it result to..

I spoke to a couple of teachers today and some helped some helped too. I was given a stack of chem worksheet. and im proud to say that i completed to sets. -_-" Its a long shot but if the effort is put in but the results still remain the same... what's left for me?

I might take it and leave all this nightmare behind.
But running does not solve anything.
Perhaps it does.

suburbancupid.